.. so, i went to work the next week and it came back.. so i went and hid and cried again.. blah!!.. then the week after it happend again alyhouthgh this time it came outta no where. I was in the back of the store hiding cuz i felt si shitty.. someone came and asked what i was doing on there way upto the office and i could only answer them by crying,, words where all gone and that was it.. he sat me down and the manager came to talk to me.. we had a long chat about what was going on in my life… and we worked out it was the fact that i just hadn’t been ready for leaving college.. my life was soo flat working in the shop.. i’d done all this work at college and was now in this lil cycle of work, sleep, work sleep etc etc.. so i quit the job and found a uni too come to (the mamger told me too) she was cool.. they were like 4 understaffed when i left… so now i’m here in london, happy as could be.. lifes sweet!!

What i’m trying to say is.. double check what your doing in life is “deep” enougth to satisfiy your self projected potensoial.. and if its noit (i dunno, wrong course, wrong college, wrong BF, wrong town etc etc) then change it cuz thats what i did. .. Catch yuz laters,